5 Questions To Help You Vomit Out 2018 And Leave It There

This man was touching me in ALL the right places.

It was the last day of business before closing for the holidays and I thought a massage would help ease up my tension. That night I was headed to a friend’s house for dinner and I didn’t want to take that tension with me.

I thought the last day of my business would look like me jumping for joy after my last call and running into the fields like a Bollywood actress. That was far from how I was feeling.

I was tired. I was exhausted. I was angry. I was burnt out.

During my 15-minute chair massage, this man was pressing all the right places. It felt SO good and was really helping me relax into my body. Within minutes I found my body relaxing and tears coming out of my eyes.

There it is, I thought. I knew something was sitting in me and I felt restless because of it. By the time I got to my car, it turned into a full-on crying session. Little did I know there was about to be an avalanche meltdown.

The tears felt uncontrollable, heavy, and ugly. I felt this heavy energy moving through my body. I didn’t know what to do with it and felt very overwhelmed.

As my awareness came into focus and I realized what was happening, I comforted myself and said, it’s ok baby girl. Let it out. I know it’s been so hard and I love you very much my baby.

As my crying got louder, harder, and heavier, a few times I felt nauseous and thought about pulling over and vomiting.

I understood what was happening. My body was literally vomiting out 2018. All the hardship of 2018 and the last 3 years came to surface.

All my unworthiness was being spat up. My body was rejecting all the old energy. It literally felt like demons were screaming and pushing to leave my body.

It made sense. There was so much work I been doing on myself, and these inner demons no longer had a toxic place to thrive in.

I went deeper and gave myself permission to be ANGRY to be SAD to be DISAPPOINTED to be MAD at the things I didn’t achieve, at the acknowledgments I didn’t get, at the numbers I didn’t hit, and at the people who were getting on my nerves (lol).

Why can’t everyone just leave me alone and let me live my life? And why does everything have to be so hard? I hate everyone and I hate everything! I could hear my little girl screaming inside me.

When I pulled up at my friend’s place I texted her to give her a heads up that I was having a meltdown. I asked her if she could have water ready for me and point me to the restroom so I could gather myself.

Luckily this was a friend I felt comfortable having a meltdown in front of, otherwise I’m not sure what I would’ve done at this point.

She sweetly had a water bottle waiting for me when she opened the door. And I burst out crying some more and spilled my heart out. She handed me a glass of red wine.

I don’t know everything I released, but I know I released a lot of heaviness, trauma, and disappointment from 2018 and more. Although I felt embarrassed about my meltdown at first, I knew it was so necessary. I knew that I did not want to take that crap with me into 2019.

As the Universe would have it, 2 days later I attended my client’s Winter Solstice event. Dana Garced, a Meditation Mentor, explained that this week was the darkest week of the year and it was the time for reflection, release, and closing things up.

She invited us to write out what we wanted to release and throw it in the burning fire. I couldn’t believe what perfect timing this was. Check out the picture of the event below.

Here’s my invitation to you: Before December 31 strikes midnight, I want to invite you to do the same.

Vomit out 2018.

Release all that you don’t want to take with you in 2019.

Your thoughts and feelings about 2018. About your life. The setbacks. The disappointments. Whatever is bubbling in you. Let it out baby and leave it in 2018, where it belongs, in the past.

I felt so much better the next day after my meltdown, I felt so much lighter, so much calmer, and so much more in my body.

And then a powerful shift started to happen. I started to feel REALLY proud of myself and all that I achieved. I was like WOW Aditi – even amongst ALL that BS you released 55 pounds and built a 100K business from scratch.

You are pretty badass and lots have given up on this journey but you’re going girl, you’re DOING IT.

It was a huge shift from how disappointed I was feeling about my results and just the overall struggle of it all.

Now I’m back in California after a 5 week long trip to my hometown in New Jersey for the holidays. I been taking this last week to just recover from 2018. I been sleeping, watching Netflix, having a glass of wine… it has been wonderful.

How about you? How are you closing up the year?

What do you want to leave behind in 2018 and not take with you into the New Year?

Here are some 5 questions to help you reflect and release through journaling:

What are you disappointed about in 2018 or life in general?
What do you wish was different?
What do you know to be the truth?
What are you honoring yourself for this year and in life?
What are you ready to leave behind in 2018 and not take with you?

Comment below and let me know what you want to leave behind in 2018! I read all your responses, let’s do this together!

Always remember to … Dream Bigger & Go Bold.

Cheers,
Aditi 💕

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PICTURES FROM THE EVENT

All the yummy food and Dana sharing the significance of Winter Solstice.